The Force Awakens

22/12/2015 is the day I watched Star Wars VII: The Force Awakens at the Capitol Theatre.  It was the most amazing, spectacular, unforgettable film experience of my life.

First of all, let’s talk about the small things: The theatre.  It was so quaint to be at the Capitol Theatre to watch a movie.  I’ve been watching in cinemas since I can remember, but there was an old charm to sitting in a theatre like how people used to to watch this amazing film.  I was so glad I picked this one to go to.

Sitting there, I was awed.  It’s really a special experience there.

When the title card popped up on screen, I nearly cried.  It was so amazing.  It was like the first time I’d ever watched Star Wars and got sucked into it’s universe in 2005 in the cinema, but of course, at that age, I couldn’t remember much except I really liked it.  Well, I guess it’s more like the first time I popped the DVD of A New Hope into my laptop and watched it with ridiculous anticipation, and every film of the franchise since.

And there I was, again, sitting in ridiculous anticipation.  Ready for this to happen.  After the title card, this:


And I died.  It was about two minutes in, and I was already ready to start bawling about this film.

It really was just such an excellent movie, pulsing with life, beat to beat and at the end of each beat making me ready for the next, just so, so well-paced, with an ending that makes me more excited for the episode VIII.

Of course, when it started I strapped myself in for the ride of my life, and it did not disappoint.  I laughed, I cried… I really cried, but hey, no spoilers here.  I was thrilled, at the edge of my seat or smashed against it in suspense and nail-biting sequences.

The new characters, actually, did not let me down either, and in fact, provided a great new arch and storyline with twists and turns that made my heart stop, and of course, the slow reveals and the characters from the old days made me smile.  They were actually pretty lovable.

When we first saw the Millennium Falcon, you will not believe how much I smiled and just seriously grinned the hell out of my face because I was so ready for the action about to come.  The Millennium Falcon, after all, is a piece of junk, that provides the most excellent services and miracles.

By the way, I really kept myself from anything except for the trailers and the teasers for this film, meaning no extra footage of any sort not even interviews, no articles, no reviews, absolutely nothing.  I blocked it all out.  I did a pretty good job, to be honest, I was quite surprised.  The remnants of readings I did over years as a fan on the Extended Universe flushed out of my head naturally as I waited for this new film to bring me new surprises, and it really did.

This is a film you have to watch.  I guarantee, you will not leave the theatre feeling indifferent.

I did not want it to end.  I wanted the film to keep going.  Keep on rolling the film, I want more.  When the credits rolled, I sat in the afterglow.  I watched J.J. Abrams name appear, followed by George Lucas, then Harrison Ford and Mark Hamil  and Carrie Fisher and it was at this point that I actually nearly cried the hardest.  I just sat there, and listened to John Williams music fill the theatre, and I have to admit, I would have clapped if I was at the premier, or the opening day.  But there were so little people there.  It might’ve been a little sad.

Also, just so I say this, having Han and Leia together really killed me.  The chemistry between the former leads did not lie, did not disappoint in the least, and also, the wonderful acting by the two really impressed me a lot and I really cried when Leia talked about Luke because oh my Lord, I really felt it right in the heart.

After 10 years since the last trilogy concluded itself, this was the most well-crafted, beautiful, seizing, thrilling, nostalgic, impressive, magnificent comeback that could have been done.

The parallels between the Original Trilogy, of course, did not miss me at all, but that’s a different story.

The story that was told still made me feel like a kid again.  Just enough of the old, and a hell of a ride with the new.  I could not have asked for a better comeback for the franchise that will never really end.

This was the best film experience of my life.

Would I do it again?  Just about ten times over.


Restrospect and Introspect // 13/12/2015

It’s not the end of the year yet, but inspiration struck today, so I had to write this out now.

Looking back on 2015, and in recent events, there are a lot of things that have happened, a lot of things I wished went differently, and most importantly a lot of things I learned, re-learned, and was reminded of in the strangest of ways.

First of all, well, let’s just talk about things that happened recently – because that’s what’s making me write this right now.

Firstly, let’s start with me not being the best person I can be towards others – and that starts with my friend telling me to push on.  During CCAAB Camp, we really pushed each other, everyone pulled, everyone pushed, everyone ran together.  It was real encouragement – and we knew no matter what, we’d have each other’s backs.  Now comes Elections Ad-Hoc – I really wanted to drop the proposal and finish it the next day, but there was only so little left to do, and my friend kept pushing me – “Keep going.  Just a little more!!!! WE’RE ALMOST DONE!!!! :D”  And it kept me going.  We finished the proposal.  The entire thing.  It was amazing.  I thanked her, and we sent it in.  That was good.
Then I thought, more recently, about how at the start of the year I was really all about encouraging other people to push on, giving them compliments – all that stuff, because I saw people do it on the field.  It made me smile, and I wanted the same for others.  And I kept doing it until for some reason… I didn’t.  But now I will again – and I’ll mean it when I say it.  I always do.  It’s just that recently things have been moving so fast… and I guess in all that… I forgot.

Very very recently, I was reminded the concept of “YOLO”.  “$128 tickets?  You know what?  YOLO, let’s do it.”  And I really just… wow… that’s what I used to do.  What the hell happened?  Yup.  Always gotta say YOLO – after all, as I always say, you only regret chances not taken.  It’s really important to YOLO sometimes, I think, just to be able to experience life to the fullest, and to do things the way you want them to be.  And I’m really going out there now.  I’m living my life – and I love it.  And I’m going to keep on doing it.

Yesterday I watched the movie The Spectacular Now (excellent movie, to be honest, you should watch it), and looking at it with Paper Towns that I watched a while back, I thought –  well, the future is made of nows, isn’t it?  I don’t want to keep on thinking about the future.  I just want to live now.  Here and now.  The future is what you make it – and I know that it’s important, but now is important too.  This very much goes hand in hand with the whole YOLO thing.  YOLO, guys, just YOLO.  Live now.  Live in the moment.  Enjoy it.

Also from The Spectacular Now, there’s this quote, and I think it’s quite important, “If you like it, it’s not stupid.”  It’s just… for me, I think it’s important to not be afraid of what you love, and admit you love it. Dare to be yourself, and dare to be open.

While I was eating dinner literally an hour ago I was thinking of writing this, and I suddenly thought of my Students’ Council interview.  The very first one.  “What if you can’t cope?” they asked.  And I told them, as I still believe now, that, well, then I’ll just have to.  That’s life, and I’m going to do it, no matter what anyone says.  I’ll do it.  Nothing stands in anyone’s way except themselves.  Sometimes you really just have to believe you can do it.  I stand by what I said in that interview room.  I’ll just have to cope, then.  No excuses, no turning back, especially not now.  The other day, when we overran the deadline, I told the rest of the team jokingly, “It’s okay, we’re past the point of no return.  Just push on.  Keep going.”  And well, when you already screwed it over, then just push on and fix things, right?  No point reversing.  You’re not going to fix anything.

Another thing I want to remember is that well, I don’t need to have secrets, and neither should I have any.  And I don’t, thankfully.  I mean, what’s the point?  Anyway, if you have a secret, then the secret is yours – don’t share it.  I certainly won’t.  So to anyone who reads this, I don’t have any secrets, and if I did, you’d never know it ever existed.

I have been really insufferably didactic recently, and I really need to stop that.  I just need to re-find myself in this mess of my life, and I’ll be okay.  Sigh.  I really can’t help it sometimes, though I know it’d do me a lot of good if I’d stop.  After all, you learn more from listening than saying, for when you speak, you say what you already know, but when you listen, you learn something new.

I totally forgot about the next topic I wanted to talk about.  Oh dear.

Ah yes, love deeply, and love widely.  The other day was a really bad day, and I’m not going to lie – I was pretty trashed.  But… love deeply, and love widely, forgive (maybe don’t forget everything), but definitely forgive.  We’re all flawed in one way or another, and that’s okay.  Just understand, smile, give a hug, and be honest.  At least for me, that’s what’s important.  We all make mistakes, and we all get hurt.  But in the end, it’ll all work out.

That’s definitely not all I’ve learned in 2015, but it’s definitely some stuff that I remember right now, and in fact, I’ve missed out quite a bit of stuff, but it’s okay, it’ll hit me another day, so I’ll tie retrospect and introspect as of 13/12/2015 up here.

Happy Holidays! 🙂

All of us are in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”