“His heart sings. And that’s good enough for him.”
Following Ebeneezer Scrooge through his journey on finding the meaning of Christmas truly warmed my heart as the story was slowly created, built, and shared from the first dance session in July until the moment the curtain shut yesterday on the 21st of November.
Scrooge journeys with the three Ghosts of Christmas Past, Present, and Yet To Come. Personally, I think I find the most meaning in the story of Christmas Past. To see a man change and evolve into something he never thought he’d be. Something he never wanted to be – someone spoiled by greed, circumstance, and who buries love and joy in his heart because he feels the world has done him no good, and will do him no good. But then the story progresses, and you see him reminded of love… the love he once had for another person, someone who he could cherish and hold dear.
Yet we as the audience must recognise that this is what we are like, we let ourselves go, be jaded and hurt, and we retract from the world, when in fact we should not. We do not have the luxury to see what might be, but we can look back at what we were and what we are now, and make our own future to be the one we want. In us all, we were once innocent, and we can find it again. We can always find it in ourselves to be joyful, to have happiness, to care for humanity, the people around us, and to find love, ad to be pure of heart, and filled with laughter.
Never let the moment on the stage pass by. Live in the moment. Share the story. Bring laughter and joy to others through it all. The journey from July till now has not been an easy one, but it is not yet the end of my journey in ACSian Theatre, nor would I wish it to be. It is only just the beginning. A Christmas Carol wrapped up my first production in ACJC as a member of the cast, after I boarded the tech crew ship for Amadeus and the Day I Met the Prince, and I have to say that while I enjoyed myself having the position to assist those on stage, being on the stage was in a way, more satisfying. I stood before the audience, and made them feel something, even if my singing wasn’t perfect, wasn’t on key – even when I went sharp – I was in the moment. I lived the moment. Oh the dancing, the dancing made life so worth it. People may not have liked the chereography, but I just thought it was really fun. I had the time of my life dancing on that stage with all those people – it made every moment so worth it. It’s hard to express how you feel sometimes, and when you can’t say it, the best way is to just show it – to bear your heart and soul and just let go. To have fun, and implore others to get up and have some fun with you. It’s no good if you don’t share the joy, after all.
I’m so grateful for everyone who has walked with me on this journey, beside, in front, or behind me. Everyone has made this possible. To my friends, who told me in all honesty I could act and should audition for the Drama Elective Programme, I can’t thank you enough for having that faith in me, so I could have the courage to take the leap. And I think that was the best decision I made in 2015. To go for that audition that brought me to where I am today. My life would have been so different if I hadn’t gone for that audition. My life would’ve been so different if on that fateful audition Saturday, we had not walked past the Black Studio, and I didn’t hear Uptown Funk blasting from the walls that made me want to audition for movement and text. I can’t imagine my life if I had dropped out of movement when I was asked to pay instructor fees because I didn’t have the money. Everything would’ve been so different. I would be a different person.
Thank you to A Christmas Carol, to 2015 in general, for being so good to me, for teaching me things that I never knew, and to remind of things I thought I would always remember, but in human memory, forgot. Even if at times I screwed up, even if at times I didn’t feel the best, I’m glad I always kept up the good man’s smile, to stride through the darkest times with friends by my side. And that is life.
I will keep Christmas close to my heart forever more. Thank you to everyone – for everything. Let’s make more magic.